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It's no lie that I am the proudest aunt alive...

and now the fact that I am going to have ANOTHER NIECE is really making me prouder.

Another girl!!!!! yay!!

I have the greatest most handsome husband in the world. He loves me so much. I'm so greatful!

Creepy crawley

I'm not even joking when I say this...

HENRY CRAWLED FOR THE FIRST TIME TODAY!!

I'm so sad that I am the one to see it, not his momma and dada. I am debating whether or not to tell them because I want her to see it first. She is kinda anal about that sort of stuff.

But I mean he was on his little blanket he plays on, and I look down and he is crawling like 5 feet away to get his toy!! I started freaking out....HENRY, YOU'RE CRAWLING!! And he is just smiling away. Oh gosh, it was the most exciting thing I have ever seen. Besides seeing my neice crawl, but I'm sure I didn't see the first time for that.

In other news....it's no lie that I am 30 pounds (give a few more) overweight. This aint right. How can I want a child when I am in no shape to bear one? How can I complain about my pants size when I do nothing to change it? Huh? How?? Our apartment complex has a fitness center that I have never used....all I have to do is pay a one time fee of $25 dollars and I have access to it after hours, which is when I have time to go in there. So, I am gonna do that this week and start working out to lose this weight. I have to. It' s so important for me,. for mattie and as obedeince to God to take care of His temple.

I cant believe I saw Henry crawl. I mean I was so excited as if it was my own child. What it must be like to actually see that happen for your own kid! Gah what joy to be a mommy!! My time will come but ooooohhh I cannot wait until it does.

Mo money, mo problems..

Yes Puff Daddy and Notorious B.I.G. said itbest...the more money you come across, the more problems you see.

Soo...I think our computer is biting the dust. My year old laptop bit the dust a couple months back. Matt's approx. 5 year old Dell laptop has lasted forever...until now...suddenly the screen keeps blinking and then just going completely blank. No amount of jiggling the mouse brings it back. Today I had to reboot it and then 5 mins later it did it again. Soo basically we are probably going to have to buy a new computer. Can we do this? Yes, but if we do then that uses our money to go to Fayetteville for Christmas. I have to go to NC for Christmas. It's the one time a year we're all together. Also my bra's have decided to fritz out on me and all the elastic has come loose. I also need new clothes. I also need Season 2 of the Office when it comes out tomorrow. Oh yeah, I also need an eye exam and new glasses. We need $$ people and we dont have enough for all that we need.

So here's what I'm askin you to do....pray that we can trust God for Provision. Or for money to magically appear in our mailbox. That would be super sweet. Just pray. That's all.

In other news....Henry's final adoption date is Friday and I am invited to his celebration lunch afterwards. That's kinda cool. I will know nobody there and probably feel pretty awkward but he's my little buddy....I have to go. I hadn't seen him since Thursday and when I got here today he looked more like a little boy and less like a baby. It made me a little sad. Babies grow up so fast you miss so much if you don't stop and watch! I seriously cannot wait until I have a kid. I want one so bad. I am so ready to be a momma. What a joy!

Ummm....that's all. This is a busy week for Mattie so I wont really see him until Friday night. Ah well.

Babies can be so frustrating. Why cant they just go to sleep when they are tired and their eyes are obviously trying to shut?

Today Matt called this couple from church that we tried hanging out with a couple of times. Without running it by me first, he told the husband we have to hang out again.

This made me angry.

Now let me explain why:

The wife is totally not my type. At all. I know that sounds so shallow. We were all supposed to go play frisbee golf one day....I was all ready and when we get to their apartment she reveals that she hates frisbee golf and in fact doesnt like to be outside at all. She doesnt like baseball. She doesnt like camping. She doesnt like SUNLIGHT. I almost died. Matt has turned me into such an outsider....I cant stand being inside for more than like an hour. I hate the darkness. I love baseball.

I tried to hard to connect with her....I even called her like once a week after that to try and be a better friend. And she never one reached out to me, so I gave up. I figured eh, I gave it a good fight, which is rare for me to do anyways....and now I am having to do it again because Matt called them! Oh I was so annoyed. It's not really that bad but I just.....uuuhhhhhh I dont want to be her friend. I know I am sounding like a 5 year old right now but I am sure we have all had people we felt this way about.

Okay I am done complaining. I am home from Henrys and off tomorrow so YAY!!

Updates...

So Matt now has a part time job working for Primerica, a Citigroup company. It sounds like a good deal, and it came at just the time we were praying so we will see. It's a Robert Kiyosaki (rich dad??) recommended company if you know what I mean. Actually, Matt's trainer had bought the personal coaching sessions with Kiyosaki himself, and Kiyosaki told him if he can't find a Primerica company near him to work for, then he should pack his things and move to where there was one. So he moved to Tulsa, and immediately after met Mattie. We'll see how it rolls. If it all works out how we plan, we should still be well on our way to retiring by the age of 30 and then I am one step closer to having kiddos!

Really all I want to do is have babies and the ability to buy my babies anything I want. And myself. And my husband. And to build my dream house. And to help kids without parents. And help people pay for college. And lots of things.

Henrys been asleep for almost 3 hours...which is nice cause he was real cranky. He should be a happy baby when he wakes up.

One day I'll be saying stuff like this about my own child...until then..you will hear about Henry.