Thursday, February 01, 2007

Camera shy


I can't explain how I feel when I am behind a camera, but I love it. It's something so personal to me. When I am behind a camera I am able to capture the world as I see it. I think I see things a little differently than a majority of the people. I look at my homework spread out across the table and I think "wow, that's a cool composition", so I take a picture of it. I like the way my sandwich looks when I have taken a bite out of it...so I snap a picture. I think I see things differently. I also feel sort of vulnerable behind a camera. I don't want people to see me behind it. I feel embarrassed. Like somebody is reading my journal and gathering all my most precious thoughts. I don't like it. But I love it. Make sense?


I think I am going to try and find a photography school instead of pursuing psychology. Jojo, Dad, Maclaren, Mattie and the rest of my fam talked me into it. If taking pics is what I love, then why am I kidding myself by trying something else?


And then at the same time I try and talk myself out of this...why? I don't think I can capture photos of people very well.


But so what? WHo says I have to take pics of people? And who says I can' improve?


I'm just talking to myself here.


I thought I had lost one of my most favorite cd's and today after MONTHS of looking for it, I found it. I am ecstatic.


2 comments:

Anonymous said...

Hey you; you deleted your Myspace page??? Being bugged? Well just wanted to touch basis with you and see how you were doing? Sarah Mc...well you know her wrote me the other day...that's about all the news I got....did I tell you that i LOVE LOVE LOVE your pictures!!! Awesome!!!!

Joanna said...

Amy, you will never regret pursuing your passion. God has given you a talent and he loves so much for us to multiply our talents and give them back to him. I am so glad you are following your heart.