A few of my favorite things

My new favorite baby- Esseny Grace..she is 2 months old and ADORABLE!!
These are my married bro's and sistas. I love getting to know them better.

And of course, HENRY WADE!! I love love love him. He says "uh-oh" now and loves to read books.

Tomorrow is Matties birthday. I got him Prison Break on DVD....and I am going to surprise him with a cake when he gets off of work tomorrow. :) I dont have a picture of him to put up but he is one of my favorite things, too.

Mi hermano

Well, I met my new brother this week. I now have 5 brothers. My newest one- Dani (pronounce dah-KNEE...[with emphasis on the knee]). He is AWESOME!!! His little broken english is the cutest thing. he has had such an overwhelming week...he flew on a plane for the very first time, he saw snow for the very first time, everybody around him is speaking english, he doesnt know when he will be back in Peru again....I for one would be a basketcase. Heck, I was a basketcase just moving across the country...he moved to a NEW country. He is doing so great though and I am surprising myself at how much spanish I can understand.

On a different note....I want a baby NOW!!! I'm so excited ...Friday I get to go shopping with my friend Ana and her baby Esseny to find her something to wear. here is nothing I love more than babies r' us.....that store is fabulous!!

Alrighty...

Looking forward..

Well, this is going to be a crazy week! Mattie finally starts his EMT school, so he will be gone T, W, and Thursday nights from 6-10. What's great here is I work until about 5:30 soo...I wont be seeing him at least 3 days a week. (I really don't think thats great, it was sarcasm in case you missed it...). And dont ask why I abbreviated T, and W, and not Thursday. Thats just the way I wanted it...

Also on Tuesday my favorite Mary in the whole wide world gets into Tulsa from Peru!!!! I havent seen Mary since February and she is my bestest friend here so yay!!! We are all glad to have her and her husband back.

I think I've gained about 10 pounds since we've been housebound from ice...I had sent Mattie to the store to get bread, soy milk...he comes back with oreos and a humongous cookie cake. Thats my husband..he cant ingore the sugar side of life...

Umm....school is going good. Remember my nutty nutrition professor that I mentioned last post? Well, i had my new one yesterday- and he wore spandex pants to class with a t-shirt. I was worried the whole class his t-shirt would ride up and I would see a sight I do not want to see. You know what I mean. I guess it's just int he rule book for nutritionists to be sort of weird...maybe I would fit right in...

On another note, I am desperately wanting to be in NC when Olivia appears in this world. But, situations (money, school, 1, 125 miles) say differently so I guess I am stuck here until possibly next Christmas. Unless a free plane ticket and money to cover a week of work fall from the sky.

No, that was not a plea for you to send me money.........i was just talking.

Well friends, I have another blog for pics taht I havent used in FOREVER but I am putting some on of mattie and me in the ice storm if you wanna take a gander. Here is the link: http://www.mypassionpics.blogspot.com

Off to do homework!

Fact or fiction?

Picture this..

It's about 7:30 pm, on an unseasonably warm January night...I am in my first night of nutrition class. My professor is rambling on and on about his theories of food dangers that the government is covering up. One such theory is this.....we've all heard the thing about reusing bottled water bottles can cause cancer, right? Well, my professor goes further into this theory to tell us that consuming mass amounts of bottled water and pop (thats coke or soda for you non-Okies) during your third trimester will dramatically increase your chances *like almost 100 percent* of your child being born gay!!!

Yes, you read that right.

He then went on to say that that was a study...and he belevies that is not true, but homosexuality is in your dna. You can't help it.

_____________ insert 10 minute break

While the prof is out of the room, I ask my fellow students.."Did he just say that drinking bottled water will make my child be born gay" and they all said yes. It killed me! Nobody even doubted him! I am sure I made a face because this woman asked "Why, do you not agree?" and I said "Of course I dont agree, I believe homosexuality is a choice! You arent born that way!" and she replies with a "Well we'll just have to ask God some day" and I said "I'm pretty sure God would not approve of this theory...but I'm no professional on the matter". I didn't want to get in a huge debate becaus thats not what the class is about but......come on people!!! The Bible clearly states that homosexuality is a sin, am I right?

Needless to say I have switched profs and classes..

2007

Well, it's a new year now...in case you hadn't noticed yet. This year I will hopefully end up with my associates degree in my hand...and maybe a baby in my belly. I will hopefully have a fireman husband or at least an EMT....I will move to a new apartment..I will keep exercising. I will mature more.

New threads

I feel like I should post something new, but I don't have much important to say.

It's Christmas time. I was feeling so relieved that I wasn't going to NC for Christmas to be in the middle of things....now I miss my family more than ever. This is my first Christmas ever away from them. Not getting to celebrate Dad's bday with everyone. Sadness.

Our apartment has gotten way way way out of control with the mess. It's almost embarrassing. And it's not like i haven't had time to clean it. I just haven't cleaned it. I need some divine inspiration. Got any?

I've been exercising like a good girl. The numbers on the scale have not decreased, but my pants are starting to fit looser. So yay for me! Atta girl, ames. I pat my own back. I have never been this consistent with exercise ...well..ever. I've never exercised. Sad.

UMMM...That's all, I suppose.

School-io

Well, it's official...I am going back to school. Starting at the community college level, but hey, it's school! Maybe I will be the first of us O kids to get a degree. (after erica)...

I am going to major in psychology. But first I have to knock out some general ed classes. Which stinks cause I already have over 70 credit hours but not all of them count towards...anything.......

I am taking U.S. History (exciting!), Developmental Psych (wooho!!!), Nutrition, basic computers (i have to), and a math class. I must admit I am excited about all classes but math and computers. Comp will be a waste of time...math? retarded, also.

well gilmore girls is back on~

hope

hope  /ho-p/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[hohp] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation noun, verb, hoped, hop-‧ing.
–noun
1.
the feeling that what is wanted can be had or that events will turn out for the best: to give up hope.
2.
a particular instance of this feeling: the hope of winning.
3.
grounds for this feeling in a particular instance: There is little or no hope of his recovery.
4.
a person or thing in which expectations are centered: The medicine was her last hope.
5.
something that is hoped for: Her forgiveness is my constant hope. –verb (used with object)
6.
to look forward to with desire and reasonable confidence.
7.
to believe, desire, or trust: I hope that my work will be satisfactory. –verb (used without object)
8.
to feel that something desired may happen: We hope for an early spring.
9.
Archaic. to place trust; rely (usually fol. by in). —Idiom
10.
hope against hope, to continue to hope, although the outlook does not warrant it: We are hoping against hope for a change in her condition

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This morning I felt hopeful.

Now I don't.

Will things ever go back to normal? Will Mom and Dad work through this? How long is it going to take? Will true change really come?

With my God all things are possible; with my God I can scale a wall. And so can my parents. Right?

....

I feel beautiful today.

That's a feeling that doesn't visit me very often.

WOOHOO!!!

6 more days until I see Mac-daddy, Erica, April, Carly and Gmom and Pops!!!!!!

My family!!!!!!!

You don't know how excited I am to see somebody I love so much. I can't begin to explain the joy. I already feel like I can't sleep ....

maybe that's because the neighbors upstairs are making so much noise...

Alright. I seriously had 2.5 hours of sleep last night. I am going to bed...to dream of seeing my FAMILY!!!!!!

Thoughts..

So Matt and I visited a new church yesterday...it was way cool. It was real small (maybe 100 people tops) compared to the church we've been going to...700-1,000 people. I liked it much better and I felt like the Pastor was actually preaching from the bible...not just using stories to teach with a verse here or there to back it up. He said something yesterday that really stuck out to me.. he said "If you're not moving forward, you're moving backwards". Interesting.,...do you know how many areas of my life I can apply that to right now? All of them.

For instance....cleaning the apartment. If I'm not cleaning, it's just getting messier.
If I'm not exercising, I'm gaining weight.
If I'm not spending time with Jesus, I'm not growing any.

It was pretty cool. Made me think. It also was cool that for filling out a visitors card we [both] got a $5 gift card to s'bux (that's starbucks)...so now I can get my Caramel Apple Cider I have been dreaming of since the weather turned cold and grey. I only like cold and grey weather if I can drive around and see peoples white christmas lights shining through the windows, or outside on their houses. Colored christmas lights are awful- I hate them. White ones only, people. Although I have thought of getting blue ones for my tree to go with all my snowmen and blue Christmas decor. Anyhoo...

This month I get to see Granmommy and Pops who I haven't seen since my wedding! To make it better, Maclerica (that's Maclaren and Erica) are going to be there and April and Carly, too! ( i hope?!!). I am so excited to see my family! I miss my brother and sisters so much. ANd neice. And grandparents. And pretty much everybody who isn't in Oklahoma.

Today is productive...I've already changed the sheets on the bed, cleaned up (almost), got dinner in the crock, what else...? Ah relaxing.

That's all for now, folks! Tune in next time..

Our new car...its a 2000 Dodge Neon...we named him Nemo for obvious reasons...(duh..it's orange..). I love him!

If anybody reads this..

I just wanted to say to please keep Grandma Ruthie (Matt's grandmom) in your prayers. We put her in the hospital Saturday cause she was real sick. They are thinking she has pneumonia and possibly a pulminary embolism which is a blood clot in her lungs. They are treating her for both problems and she is getting better every day, but if you can remember to pray for her recovery please do! And pray for the sanity of all of us while we wait for Gma to get better and try to live our lives also. Especially for Matt's momma cause she has the munchkins to care for and Gma always helped her so much and right now she can't....sooo yeah, that is all.

Hmmm

It's no lie that I am the proudest aunt alive...

and now the fact that I am going to have ANOTHER NIECE is really making me prouder.

Another girl!!!!! yay!!

I have the greatest most handsome husband in the world. He loves me so much. I'm so greatful!

Creepy crawley

I'm not even joking when I say this...

HENRY CRAWLED FOR THE FIRST TIME TODAY!!

I'm so sad that I am the one to see it, not his momma and dada. I am debating whether or not to tell them because I want her to see it first. She is kinda anal about that sort of stuff.

But I mean he was on his little blanket he plays on, and I look down and he is crawling like 5 feet away to get his toy!! I started freaking out....HENRY, YOU'RE CRAWLING!! And he is just smiling away. Oh gosh, it was the most exciting thing I have ever seen. Besides seeing my neice crawl, but I'm sure I didn't see the first time for that.

In other news....it's no lie that I am 30 pounds (give a few more) overweight. This aint right. How can I want a child when I am in no shape to bear one? How can I complain about my pants size when I do nothing to change it? Huh? How?? Our apartment complex has a fitness center that I have never used....all I have to do is pay a one time fee of $25 dollars and I have access to it after hours, which is when I have time to go in there. So, I am gonna do that this week and start working out to lose this weight. I have to. It' s so important for me,. for mattie and as obedeince to God to take care of His temple.

I cant believe I saw Henry crawl. I mean I was so excited as if it was my own child. What it must be like to actually see that happen for your own kid! Gah what joy to be a mommy!! My time will come but ooooohhh I cannot wait until it does.

Mo money, mo problems..

Yes Puff Daddy and Notorious B.I.G. said itbest...the more money you come across, the more problems you see.

Soo...I think our computer is biting the dust. My year old laptop bit the dust a couple months back. Matt's approx. 5 year old Dell laptop has lasted forever...until now...suddenly the screen keeps blinking and then just going completely blank. No amount of jiggling the mouse brings it back. Today I had to reboot it and then 5 mins later it did it again. Soo basically we are probably going to have to buy a new computer. Can we do this? Yes, but if we do then that uses our money to go to Fayetteville for Christmas. I have to go to NC for Christmas. It's the one time a year we're all together. Also my bra's have decided to fritz out on me and all the elastic has come loose. I also need new clothes. I also need Season 2 of the Office when it comes out tomorrow. Oh yeah, I also need an eye exam and new glasses. We need $$ people and we dont have enough for all that we need.

So here's what I'm askin you to do....pray that we can trust God for Provision. Or for money to magically appear in our mailbox. That would be super sweet. Just pray. That's all.

In other news....Henry's final adoption date is Friday and I am invited to his celebration lunch afterwards. That's kinda cool. I will know nobody there and probably feel pretty awkward but he's my little buddy....I have to go. I hadn't seen him since Thursday and when I got here today he looked more like a little boy and less like a baby. It made me a little sad. Babies grow up so fast you miss so much if you don't stop and watch! I seriously cannot wait until I have a kid. I want one so bad. I am so ready to be a momma. What a joy!

Ummm....that's all. This is a busy week for Mattie so I wont really see him until Friday night. Ah well.

Babies can be so frustrating. Why cant they just go to sleep when they are tired and their eyes are obviously trying to shut?

Today Matt called this couple from church that we tried hanging out with a couple of times. Without running it by me first, he told the husband we have to hang out again.

This made me angry.

Now let me explain why:

The wife is totally not my type. At all. I know that sounds so shallow. We were all supposed to go play frisbee golf one day....I was all ready and when we get to their apartment she reveals that she hates frisbee golf and in fact doesnt like to be outside at all. She doesnt like baseball. She doesnt like camping. She doesnt like SUNLIGHT. I almost died. Matt has turned me into such an outsider....I cant stand being inside for more than like an hour. I hate the darkness. I love baseball.

I tried to hard to connect with her....I even called her like once a week after that to try and be a better friend. And she never one reached out to me, so I gave up. I figured eh, I gave it a good fight, which is rare for me to do anyways....and now I am having to do it again because Matt called them! Oh I was so annoyed. It's not really that bad but I just.....uuuhhhhhh I dont want to be her friend. I know I am sounding like a 5 year old right now but I am sure we have all had people we felt this way about.

Okay I am done complaining. I am home from Henrys and off tomorrow so YAY!!

Updates...

So Matt now has a part time job working for Primerica, a Citigroup company. It sounds like a good deal, and it came at just the time we were praying so we will see. It's a Robert Kiyosaki (rich dad??) recommended company if you know what I mean. Actually, Matt's trainer had bought the personal coaching sessions with Kiyosaki himself, and Kiyosaki told him if he can't find a Primerica company near him to work for, then he should pack his things and move to where there was one. So he moved to Tulsa, and immediately after met Mattie. We'll see how it rolls. If it all works out how we plan, we should still be well on our way to retiring by the age of 30 and then I am one step closer to having kiddos!

Really all I want to do is have babies and the ability to buy my babies anything I want. And myself. And my husband. And to build my dream house. And to help kids without parents. And help people pay for college. And lots of things.

Henrys been asleep for almost 3 hours...which is nice cause he was real cranky. He should be a happy baby when he wakes up.

One day I'll be saying stuff like this about my own child...until then..you will hear about Henry.

Until further notice..

So Matt and I decided to postpone moving pretty much indefinately. There are just other things right now we need to worry about. We both feel good about our decision.....as much as I want to live near mi familia, it just didn't feel right. Like we were forcing it to happen or something. I feel much better now. Almost relieved. It's weird.

Anyway,....thats the news fornow.