What a lovely day..

to have a slice of humble pie. (figuratively speaking, that is).

So...while talking to a friend from church, who works there kind of, she suggested that Matt and I go talk to them to seek some financial help. She said they really helped her and her husband when neither of them had a job. She said for us to copy the bills we cant pay and bring them in, and the church should help.

I gotta tell ya we feel REALLY embarrassed to be doing this. But we wrote down all the bills we pay, and it ends up we are (without me having a job) spending 228 more dollars a month than we actually bring in. So....we've been kinda just trusting God to get things payed. We only budget 200 dollars a month for grocerys, so I figure if they could at least give us some gift cards to Wal Mart (which she said they did for her) and pay our internet bill, that would help us out as much as we need.

We prayed we wouldn't be so embarrassed. Matt's sister is the receptionist/administrative assitant at our church, so she pretty much knows everything that goes on....so I am sure she will know about this, and then go and tell Matt's mom, and then they will all question us over lunch about how come they didnt know we were struggling this much.

I'm not writing this as a way to complain, or make you feel bad and send me $$, I am just saying it's HARD to ask for help!!! Especially from your church. I don't know why. Because part of what they are there for is to help out others, ya know? And why wouldn't God want to bless us this way?

Why cant I just find a job!??!!!!