Gone in 60 seconds

While I was in NC last week, my mom came up with this idea that if we had something to complain about, we only got 60 seconds to speak our minds, and then we had to forever hold our peice. Well, today was moving day in the Loerke household, and I bottled up all my complaints for "60 seconds" on my blog. It's a safe haven, since nobody in matt's family knows about this, and most of my complaints are about them. So, t-minus 60 and counting:

-matts mom got really lost because she was supposed to follow me, but decided not to and exit whatever way she watned to go.
- i specifically labeled the box with our flatscreen computer monitor as FRAGILE. DO NOT STACK ANYTHING ON TOP OF THIS BOX. for fear of harming the screen. I find the box underneath EVERYTHING in the back of Matts moms car. DID YOU NOT SEE MY MARKING ON THE BOX?? if its ruined, that will involve another post of complaints.
- dont ask me after every freaking box you grab "where should i put this?" I SPECIFIALLY LABLED ALL BOXES AS DEN, KITCHEN, BEDROOM, BATHROOM...and ALL THE BOXES SOMEHOW ENDED UP IN THE DEN. AGAIN I ASK...DID YOU NOT SEE MY MARKING???
- my time is up.

Sorry if you hate complaining, but I feel better now.

On another note, (because I like to leave my blogs on other notes, seems to be a common theme I have)...I really really miss April. She's my twin and I feel so sad when I leave her. I feel more like her twin anyway, then her younger sister. I cant wait till April lives a whole freaking day closer to me. Now I gotta get maclerica down this way............

Off to bed after my 16 hours of moving!!!!!!!!!!1 and we still arent done!!!

I've got a fevah

And the only cure is more moving!

Well, we are moving apartments Saturday. As soon as we get the keys, I will get over there and take some pictures. Today my goal was to pack my clothes. In the process, I realized half of my clothes were items that I was able to wear some two the three years ago, but cant fit my big toe in now. I have been holding on to these clothes for "when" or "if" and I finally decided today that enough is enough. I keep seeing this clothes, remembering the glory days of being a size nothing, and then eating because I am depressed that I literally cant fit the dang ole big toe on those clothes. SO. I pulled out some garbage bags, filled them up with all clothes that do not fit RIGHT now (minus my two fave jeans from the gap that I allowed myself to keep) and I am marching them down to the goodwill donation center. Out with the old. I have to come to terms with myself right now, and work on getting this self healthy...not just wishing I could look like I did when I was a teenager. (which wasnt that long ago, but at the same time it was almost 4 years...thats a lot of weight..). So, I am doing this while Matt is not here, because he is a packrat and will insist i keep the clothes for a later date (right, when I am pregnant?? ha!). There is no stopping me now.

On another note, I am so over selfishness right now.

Also, if you ask Henry to do the moonwalk, he will turn around and start walking backwards. It's amazing!

Wendesday I went with April to pick up Carly from school. All last week they learned about Noah's ark, and she painted a picture. Carly told me she painted it for me (probably because I told her it was beautiful). NOthing more was saidof the pic...and then Saturday morning I was telling Carly "Carly, I just love you so much" and she said "naught-uh" and buried her face in the couch. I said "You dont love your aunt spazzy?" and she said "Of course I do, i gave you the ark picture!" HA!!!

Carlyisms, as told by Aunt Spazzy

Yes, I am copying april's idea of Carlyisms, but I have a bunch too:

April: Carly, do you know Aunt SPazzys name?
Carly: no
April: It's Amy michelle
....10 minutes later at Sonic, to Opa
Me: Carly, canyou tell opa what you learned my name was?
Carly: Aunt Spazzy Shell....
it has since changed to Aunt Spazzy Michelle
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This morning Carly told me about her day with Papa at work;
Carly: I went to work with Papa and it was sooo awesome and like WHOA!
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I gave Carly some gushers this morning..
Me: Carly tell Momma what you had after breakfast
Carly: I had dryers!! no....Gushers

Precious.

I love this kid!!!

Even walls fall down

I feel like I've had this wall up around me for....a long time now. I know God was [is] there, but..I just couldn't "feel" it. I couldn't get into worship at church, I couldn't pay attention...it's like I felt like I was drifting further and further away....

Anyway, the other night my friend Lili and I went to see Michael W. Smith in concert. It was amazing and a great time of worship and I felt like my walls finally come down. I finally felt like the only thing between me and God was my actual flesh. It was great! God has been showing up so much around my little world in Tulsa lately and it was so great to FEEL it too. I cant explain it. I just...I have been a much happier person ever since.

I'm also happy because on FRIDAY I leave to see my family!!! Wahooo!!

Also, I am searching high and low for a full time job that is NOT retail or food related. Please keep this in your prayers as I need a job TOMORROW basically.

Also, I am very excited that April and Joel and the girls are moving back to Alabama!!! This means I will basically be a whole day closer to my family. And undoubtedly, mom and dad will have to migrate that way also...sooo...this is just good all the way around. Now I just gotta get Maclareica closer.

OH yeah! Today we are going to sign our lease and put down a deposit for our new apartment. I will post pictures when I can get in there. It is DARLING! AND we are so excited!

Tomorrow is Mom's birthday- Happy Birthday Momma!!