Tomorrow, tomorrow, I love ya tomorrow

Well..Tomorrow my deary deary sister is moving 14 hours closer to me!

Woohoo!!!

Birfday Smirfday

In North Carolina, people say "birfday" instead of "birthday". That has always drived me crazy.

Next month I will turn 24. I go to the computer and look at all the beautiful North Face jackets that cost way too much, or the 200+ dollar camera lenses that would be so awesome to have, or a good tripod for my camera....and make a mental list of what I want for my birthday.

And then my mother in law asks me what I want, and I can't think of anything. Why? I come to the conclusion that I have everything I need. I have an AMPLE amount of blankets for the cold, I have shoes and clothes spilling out of my closet, I have food in my fridge, and oscilliating fans for when my apartment gets too hot. I have some great friends here in Tulsa. I have tickets to go see Counting Crows next month, my favorite person April is moving to Alabama this week.........I have no complaints.

I guess I think this...why do we have to want stuff for our birthday? There is always going to be things I want, like that beautiful North Face Windwall 1 jacket, or the Canon 70mm-200mm lens....but if the money were in my hand, and I got to spend with it how I choose, i probably wouldn't buy either of those things. I'd probably stick it in the offering basket at church. Everytime money comes in my hands I want to give it away. Matt tells me there is a time to keep it to help with things, but I always hate that. I always want to give it back. I'm not saying this so that it looks like I am a person who gives all the time, or am trying brag...I'm just saying is all.

SO what do I want for my birthday? A job, that would be great. A nice evening spent with Matt. Some Vanilla Blue Belle's with Candy Corns and some Carrot Cake with Cream Cheese icing.






And that north face jacket.

My Oklahoma Family

My Oklahoma Momma, Gma and Sisters, and brother...and husband...



Me and Becka, she just turned 14


My newest brother Dani and Mary mi hermana


My Okie Dokie Momma and Gma, the greatest cook ever!!

Our new scooter

This thing is lots of fun to ride!!! Wheee!!

So, today we are selling Matts car to the Toyota dealership. They offered us 5,000, which is right at blue book value, so I guess that's pretty good. We're gonna go pick out a scooter this week. We pretty much have one in mind, but we also want one that can handle both of us on the Interstate ...because these puppies get anywhere between 60-80 miles a gallon. And it's about 5-600 miles to Anniston. Which means we will use maybe 20 gallons of gas...which means it will cost us only about 60 bucks- round trip. Versus the close to 200 it would cost us before. Can we say nice? I think so. The only prob is scooters and motorcycles aren't allowed on the Turnpikes here, and we have to take the turnpike to get out of Tulsa...but we'll figure it out. So we are hoping for a visit to the Hawbabys in September for Labor day. I hope so. I do miss my sister a lot. She's my most favorite person after Mattie.

In other news...we turned in our bills to church, and it looks like they are gonna pay what we gave them..which is about 470 dollars worth of bills. This leaves us with 200 extra dollars that we can pay towards debt! Awoo-hoo!

The critter man is coming to capture the critter (who from now on is referred to as Roofus). Oh, did I not mention him? We have a BEAST living in our roof in the sunroom. Sounds like a dog. We named him Roofus, since he is on the roof...so hopefuly he can capture this guy.

Back to more stock charts!

I got chills..they're multiplyin'

Well, I found out today that Henry's mom is pregnant....WITH TWINS!!!! We are all SO excited because they have tried en-vitro (however it is spelled) for the past liek 6 years and when it did work, she had miscarraiges. SHe is 9 weeks pregnant and is GUSHING with excitement as am I...

Why? Well when I found out it was twins I just spazzed, because one night in May, the week of her egg retreival, Matt and I were praying for her and that this would just work and as I was praying I said something to the effect of..God, maybe even bless her with some twins AND HE DID!!!!!!!!!!

I dunno. It's so amazing what prayer can do. I'm not saying that my prayer alone is what made her pregnant with twins, because God already knew what He wanted for her but MAN that is so cool! I am soooooooo excited for her!!!!!!!! Yay for babies!!!!!

Well I just applied for a job at Best Buy, and tomorrow I am going to go turn in another application at the University of Oklahoma. Apparently my last one never got to where it needed to go, according to the human resources department. Whatever that means. I really want this OU jon, they have great benefits!! And 5 weeks paid vacation, you cant beat that.

Pray that this all goes well, please!! I need a job NOW!

Real Men Love Jesus

This bumper sticker has always bothered me......It sounds so..seclusive? When I see it just makes me want to puke. I mean what kind of message is that sending to men who dont love jesus? That they arent a man? It just seems so rude to me. I don't see anywhere in the Bible that says you aren't a man if you don't love Jesus. Maybe it does, but I don't recall ever seeing anything like that. I studied the New and Old testament in College, and dont once remember focusing on the fact that loving Jesus makes you a man. A man to me is a mature male who does what he can to take care of and provide for his family, who loves his family, doesn't act like a child and isn't irresponsible. Sure, I would prefer a man who loves Jesus, but on my list of what makes a man a man, that isn't like the only qualification.

I dunno, I guess it just bothers me all these little "Christian" sayings we have. Some of them seem so demeaning to those who choose not to believe...it's just embarrasing sometimes.

What a lovely day..

to have a slice of humble pie. (figuratively speaking, that is).

So...while talking to a friend from church, who works there kind of, she suggested that Matt and I go talk to them to seek some financial help. She said they really helped her and her husband when neither of them had a job. She said for us to copy the bills we cant pay and bring them in, and the church should help.

I gotta tell ya we feel REALLY embarrassed to be doing this. But we wrote down all the bills we pay, and it ends up we are (without me having a job) spending 228 more dollars a month than we actually bring in. So....we've been kinda just trusting God to get things payed. We only budget 200 dollars a month for grocerys, so I figure if they could at least give us some gift cards to Wal Mart (which she said they did for her) and pay our internet bill, that would help us out as much as we need.

We prayed we wouldn't be so embarrassed. Matt's sister is the receptionist/administrative assitant at our church, so she pretty much knows everything that goes on....so I am sure she will know about this, and then go and tell Matt's mom, and then they will all question us over lunch about how come they didnt know we were struggling this much.

I'm not writing this as a way to complain, or make you feel bad and send me $$, I am just saying it's HARD to ask for help!!! Especially from your church. I don't know why. Because part of what they are there for is to help out others, ya know? And why wouldn't God want to bless us this way?

Why cant I just find a job!??!!!!

The bank offered me a job at 7.50 an hour. i had to say no, because I would have to get another job on top of htat....and to make ends meet by covering matts expenses, i would have to find another 8 dollar job, along with the bank, and work 88 hours a week. not gonna happen. that is just too much work, ya know?

we put for sale signs up in matts car, so if we can sell it we will use some of that $$ to live off of, which gives me a little longer than 3 weeks to find a job. a lady at church wants me to babysit her THREE boys for 8 bucks an hour for a couple of days. thats so not worth the money or time. she lives forever and a day away...plus 8 dollars for THREE kids is a rip off. i got that with one kid. the nanny lady bailed on me also, she said 10 dollars was too much for her to afford. her loss, eh?

alright......guess i better go print some stocks for my mom.

Got a bandaid?

I hurt. All around me, couples that are close to me are just falling apart. I got news yesterday of my cousin and his wife who are getting a divorce*. All I could do is cry. I mean.....does anybody else in my life want to break up their marraige? Please just go ahead and do it will the wounds are still fresh and before I scab over.

I hurt like this is happening to me....I am so thankful it's not, but if I don't look out, dont keep things right with God, dont love my husband like I should...it could.

Today I prayu for all of our marraiges. May they be blessed beyond all measures and filled with more love we could ever dream of.

*that is a cousin on matt's side...so nobody worry. sorry maclaren and erica for any confusion!!

Job update

So, the bank interview went really good until they told me they only pay 7.50 an hour. I am looking for at least 8, and preferably 10 so that I can support us totally while Matt is in school next semester. Sooo... we will see. It's also only part time with 34 hours a week, which isnt enough, and the schedules arent totally set, so getting a 2nd job would be kind of tricky.

I did however get a call today from a woman at my church who is looking for a nanny a couple days a week starting in august. I told her I charge 10 bucks an hour, so we'll go from there and see how that pans out. My sister in law thinks 10 bucks an hour is too much, but judging from gas prices which dont seem to be lowering anytime soon, and the taxes I have to take out for my checks, It comes out to about 8 bucks. But this would be a set schedule, so I could find a job for the days I am not nannying. ALso, the kid is 14 months old which is such a fun time because they are learning new stuff all the time!! I pray this works out because I looove to nanny.

The nannying wouldn't start until August, and we are praying I can get a job by the end of this month. If not, Matt may have to deny his scolarship and hold off on this schooling program...which will putt him behind in nursing school, so PLEASE PLEASE be praying for something to work out SOON!

We are taking his car to get cleaned this week, then slapping some for sale signs in it. We could use the money, and can get 6 thousand easy for his car so...pray that that sells also.

Well....that's all for now. Wait, one more prayer request- I have a test in govt tomorrow, and judging from my last test (i got a 61) i am very weary of doing good on this...so. yeah...